Have you ever scream so loud and no one could here you? Have you ever been in a room full of people and still feel alone? I went through a stage in my life where I was depressed all the time, no matter what excited thing happened I always found myself crying to sleep. For six months I would question my existent, and my purpose in life. There were times that I thought about ending my life because I figured the pain would stop if I did. I showed all the signs that I needed help but no one was willing to hear my cry. I felt like I was screaming from the top of my lungs and no one could here me. My cry for help was screaming so bad that I begin to hide my pain. I figured if I could fake my happiness that the pain would stop. One day I came upon this scripture, Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans, I have for you declares the Lord,” (English Standard Version). When I read the scripture, I knew I did not stumble across it on accident but God was telling me not to give up. I knew the only way to gain my happiness back, was to take it back from my depression. I decided to forgive everyone and everything that hurt me by writing a letter. I wrote a letter to my depression everyday until I could feel my depression slipping away. Till this day, whenever my depression would try to sneak up on me, I begin to write. I would write until I feel as though I am okay. I made the decision that if I needed to scream than I would be able to save myself.
The girl who cried for help